Thank you for the courage of your question. We are heartbroken to hear of your experience. We hope the content of Becoming a Church That Cares Well for the Abused is an important step toward preventing your story from being repeated in the life of others.
Becoming a Church That Cares Well for the Abused is primarily written for ministry leaders. As a survivor, its benefit to you would likely be indirect; describing how a church should respond when someone speaks up about their experience of abuse.
Diane Langberg, a contributor to this project, has written an excellent book titled On the Threshold of Hope, which would more directly address how to heal from the experience of abuse if you believe Becoming a Church That Cares Well for the Abused is not the best fit for your needs at this time.